Those moments.

You know when you are going along in your life all happy, and if not hapy then just content. Then all of a sudden a song comes on the radio, but not just any song, their song. You know how when you are in love with someone, and you can find that one song that just fits exactly how you feel. That song that is basically your heart on a platter. and up until that point you were not happy with things ending, but you were ok with it. You are ok with the fact that you are not together and you are not meant to be.
Then that stupid song comes on the radio, and in a spilt sec you are thrown right back in the middle of it. Like you remember exactly how thing were and exactly how many nights you spent crying and exactly how it felt to be uncortrollably in love with them. Its like someone just cut you back open and threw salt on your wounds, and the song ends and you are stuck with that feeling, for a good while after.

Well yeah....I fucking hate those moments.

"I don't remember who met who first, or who fell in love with who first. All I remember is the seven of us always together. "


This is always how i felt about my group of four friends. but the time has come when ...we are not friends anymore. WE have either slowly drifted apart or have cut all ties. I used to feel like i was apart of soemthing so much bigger that no matter what happens i had these three people that i was connected to .........but now that connection is gone.



Kirby: I always thought we'd be friends forever.
Kevin: Yeah, well forever got a lot shorter all of a sudden.

It's kinda funny that the one person that fought so hard to make me have faith in people would soon there after turn my life upside down and hurt me so badly...yet he made me gain faith in people and more importantly he made me gain faith in myself. in who i am becoming and where i have been.


this growing up thing is hard.....but it sure is fun.

Your kiss

Your kiss moved my world...it made it all ..fit.

Now what?

do we pretend that it never happened like when you kissed me it felt like everything was ...right.
Like eventually i could be happy and not have to try so hard to be happy.


i love you, i just figured it out.....why won't you love me back

Have you ever thought about ?

How many times you have seen a friend for the last and not realized that it was the last time. you never get to say good bye to them. You never get closer. one day you think of them and realize that you will never see them again. Maybe they live in a different state then you maybe you don't have there number anymore, maybe it's just been to long. So many missed moments. However at the same time do you think you would want to know this, you would constantly be saying goodbye.

They got married

THEY GOT MARRIED.
i can't believe they actually went through with it.

i can't believe it didn't fall apart.

RAWR

Choices

So i was thinking today, that its the big moments that make you. your first, your first kiss, you first relationship, Your first time. i realized its really sad that one day when i have a little girl, and we sit down and talk about sex......well my stories will suck. It makes me sad. I just realized that your whole life is a long time to live with bad choices.


I just want to be able to look back and be proud of most of the choices i have made.


Its just sad is all.

The song

i have a habit of designating a song to certain guys and i kinda wanted to make a list


Seth-Pieces of me
Colin- Michelle Branch - Desperately
Alex- Chasing cars-Snow patrol
Boston- Augustana
Tim - Getting into you -Reliant k
How far- Martina Mcbride
(Who knew-pink)
Andrew- Fucking boyfriend- the birds and the bees
perhaps perhaps perhaps -cake
Rockstar-nickleback
who i am hates who I've been-Relient k
Jordon- Chemistry of a car crash
Topher- Run to you
Rock It Till You Drop It-fefe dobson
Darrell - Kiss me-
Leave the Pieces - the wreckers
What ever the 30 sec loop on big fish is
-- ~Bleeding love - Leonna Lewis
Just so you know-Jesse Mccartney
Shaun - Dashboard Hands down
Avril Lavigne - I can do better
Will- Dancing in the moonlight
S- Here in your arms -Hellogoodbye

Funeral for a friend

Your silence speaks
Leaps and Bounds more then
Your words ever did.

The silence Screams the truth
The words you, yourself
could never say

I am drowning on dry land.
all i ever wanted
was an S.O.S call
but there was nothing
Nothing more then radio silence

I am drowning on dry land
With no one coming to save me.
I hope at least
you can be fake enough
to go to the funeral

You can stand amongst
My fair weather friends
Crying your eyes out
And say how
"I wish I had done more."

Don't worry my fair friend
You will never have
to go to my funeral
Nothing has died
expect our friendship.

Perfect

"So there's this boy, we argue a lot. He makes fun of me because
I can only stay on a subject for like 5 seconds and them I'm on to
the next one. He listens to me when I'm sad and handles me when
I'm mad. I tell him I hate him and he responds with, "no you don't."
Yeah he's not prince charming, but to me he couldn't be more perfect."


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It's perfectly Imperfect.

Thank you.